Venting

[nekosensei]

Last night I must have gotten eleven or twelve hours of sleep. I'm happy because, with everything I've been through these past few weeks, I really needed it. I haven't really been sleeping as much as I used to and it's nice to be able to catch up. Now...if only I could get a break from the anxiety dreams. Last night, I dreamt that I ended up in the hospital again. The weird part about that dream was, the room was pretty big and I was able to teach my classes from my hospital bed. The obnoxious thing was that I didn't have any of my handouts that I needed for class and had to get help from someone else. That was one strange dream.

Yesterday, I went to the store with doomsey to do the grocery shopping. It's sad. Since when did going to the grocery store become "exercise"? I was able to do get what we needed, but I had to have doomsey stand in line and pay at the register since I was getting tired. It's annoying that recovery is taking such a long time. I really wish I could do something fun like go for a walk while listening to music. I used to do that a lot and I would have started it back up again if it hadn't been for all the health problems I've been having since early July. Oh well...hopefully I'll be able to do that again once the weather starts warming up. I guess I've also been taking good health for granted all these years.

Oh...I also hate having to depend upon people for help. doomsey must be getting really annoyed with me.

I've also been having weird heart palpitations, usually at night on days where I've been doing a lot. I'm thinking that I'm getting them because of a combination of overexertion and anxiety. The doctor says that they're only a problem if my heart rate increases when I have them...and it doesn't so things should be okay. They used to be unnerving, but now I think they're mostly annoying. Last night after I went to bed, I hugged the cat while she was purring so I wouldn't notice them. I think this is something that's going to go away when my lungs start getting better, but I'm still going to have a talk with my doctor about it when I go in for my blood draw tomorrow...along with some issues with my back. For whatever reason, around late afternoon / early evening, I feel like I've been kicked in the kidneys. It usually goes away and stays gone until the next day once I take Tylenol.

Let's see...what else have I been up to? Last night, doomsey and I watched the last two episodes of Doctor Who: Season Two. That was really sad. This morning, I talked with a friend that I haven't heard from for awhile. We used to be neighbors when I was living in my old apartment. This afternoon, doomsey and I plan to meet up with Sam and Gracie to get sushi. Mmmm...sushi.

Comments

[juxta-poser.livejournal.com]

Which Dr. Who? The original or the new one?

[nekosensei.livejournal.com]

The new one. I should really watch the old series some time...

[bibliofilen.livejournal.com]

That dream just sounds like your mind is considering how much of a handicap your illness will be in your teaching. Quite a logical thing to be processing really. I'd recommend valerian against the anxiety, it's not even a prescription drug but has worked very well for me.