Ugh! Just ugh!

I don't know anymore...

I've got two really annoying things going on. My neck sprain is acting up again. My neck hurts and sometimes I get this buzzing feeling in the back of my head. I wish it would stop doing that. I do the exercises that my physical therapist gave me this fall, and that seems to be helping a bit. The second problem is that I think I have a kidney infection or something. Almost every day, my back starts hurting (right around the kidneys) sometime between 1:00 and 5:00 in the afternoon. It really hurts like a mofo until I take Tylenol. Then, it goes away and doesn't show up until the next day. That's weird. I have no idea what's going on with that. The doctor did a culture last week, but she hasn't gotten back to me yet. She says that it takes four to five days. I hope she'll have something for me by tomorrow otherwise I'm going to fucking scream.

Yesterday I did good until I went to a play at the Goodman with my husband's family. Earlier in the day, doomsey and I went grocery shopping. I drove for the first time in a month actually. Then, during the second half of the play, I kept feeling like I was having a hard time breathing / getting enough oxygen. This was probably around ten o'clock. Then, I got really winded heading over to Peterrino's for dinner, which was in the same building. Everybody seems to think that my asthma was acting up. After we got seated, I had a *major* panic attack...most likely brought on by the asthma attack. It was awful. I was afraid that I was going to pass out and end up getting hauled off to the closest ER. (That would have really sucked since we were celebrating judygs' birthday). Luckily, that didn't happen. I took a Xanax, my inhaler, and lots of water. That seemed to work because things got better after that. I still don't understand quite what happened yesterday. It's possible that I'm coming down with a cold since my throat hurt when I woke up and my nose was stuffed up a bit. I'm feeling a bit congested now actually. That would make it difficult to breathe. I also may have overdone it yesterday since we were out until midnight and I hadn't had a nap.

I don't know. I'm frustrated. I just want to cry right now. From what I've been reading, it's going to take three to four months for me to get my breath back again. That and the cold, snowy winter we've been having is making things difficult. This is definitely THE WORST WINTER EVER!!! Hmm...maybe I need to migrate south for winter this year.

Cosette: "Chocolate. Do Not Want."

Today, cosettemonster was poking at me and begging for some of the chocolate cake that doomsey and I were eating. I let her sniff some of the chocolate frosting from the cake and she made one of those faces she makes when she really doesn't like the smell of something. (The last time she made a disgusted face like that was when I put some pickle juice on her nose. I didn't know at the time that cats really don't like vinegar. The poor thing!) It's a good thing that my cat doesn't take after me in liking chocolate because a) I don't want to share and b) chocolate is bad for cats.

Hmm...part of me wonders if arwenmonster would like chocolate. She's seems to be less picky about food than cosettemonster. When she was a kitten, I once saw her chowing down on some flavored rice that I was going to have for dinner. cosettemonster would never do that. She has her priorities straight. If it's not fish, it's not worth the calories.